Dear God, 
I feel so utterly defeated. Every move to grow closer to You, to do want I think you want me to do, to walk on the path of righteousness is being blocked. Lord, please help me in this storm! I am hurting, I am thirsty for the living water you provide! Shower me with that. Let me be a light. Please don't let my light be dimmed. Please Lord, let me be a warrior in this world so more souls will see the beauty of the next!
please be there for me
*the sinner

Dear God, 
Thank you for my wonderful friends who I can laugh with and play games with and just all around have a good time with! I really do enjoy their company. Thank you for my job and the opportunity to go further with it in my education! I know of many who cannot find anything right now and I know that this job is a blessing! Thank you for my church family and the support they give. Just....thanks. I know I don't say it enough and even though you want to know everything about me from me today I am holding back my selfish pleas and taking time to count my blessings.
*the sinner

Dear God, 
Thank you so much for the special people you put in my life. I was so very blessed to spend time with one of them last night. Well, honestly a family of special people but especially S. She is always there to talk and I really look up to her in so many ways. Thank you so much for the guidance you have been giving me and the lights you've put in my life. Thanks
*the sinner

Dear God, 
Thanks for listening to my silent plea for money. Sometimes I can't comprehend how you allow things to work out for people who love you, but that doesn't mar my enthusiasm and appreciation for it! Today went pretty well, Im pretty sure J was put on the earth to try my patience but was reassured when another teacher complimented me on that particular area. Lord, I am discouraged about so much right now. More encouragement would be loverly. I pray that the desired relational growth between us isn't stunted by my faulty human nature. 
Love
*the sinner

Dear God,
Tomorrow starts a new school year for us at the foundation. I started this job last spring, sort of in the middle of a bunch of new things so I am excited to start fresh! New classroom, new work, new uniforms for everyone-Im excited to chart the growth of my students and to sharpen my teaching skills along the way. I pray that you are with every child at school, with their caregivers and with all of my fellow teachers. Tomorrow is not promised to us but we are ever so grateful when the sunrise happens.
Thank you for today and all the fun it offered!
Love you,
*the sinner

Post the first

So, here I am. I suppose I ought to let you know the exact purpose of this blog- and here goes that trying. Today, I hurt. I feel lonely and useless and when my friends are hurting, I hurt that much more. I believe that nothing can solve this but talking to the man in charge and that that man is God. I know He wants to hear our troubles and joys and sins and victories and this is a way for me to share those things. No one person is perfect. There are so many things I have wrong. There are so many things I want to change and that change comes through allowing God into your life whole-heartedly. I truly believe that. And so, being a twenty something whose life seems to be on autopilot without much direction, I will pray. I will pray for my friends, my family, my country, my co-workers, my sanity, my prince charming who I hope will come for me one day and for you dear reader. However you stumbled across this blog is not important hopefully you will find hope in my hope, comfort that you are not alone and say a little prayer yourself.

He is always listening!

Dear God, 
Today was...well long. I loved sorting through things today and finding all sorts of literary jewels. After work, I really enjoyed working out and am looking forward to making it an everyday thing. After church however, I became an emotional eater while looking on at two happy couples who seemed to not even notice I was there. I envy their happiness so much Lord, please help me overcome that. Now, I am home where turmoil has come in the form of a broken father/daughter relationship. Lord, I pray for that whole family and everyone who has become involved with that. I pray that you give them peace, patience and understanding and that forgiveness can occur on both sides. I pray for wisdom for everyone that is consulted about the problems but most of all God I pray for love to enter in. Unconditional love. 
Thank you so much for this day, that I have a home with a bed and food to eat. Thank you for the clothes on my back (and on my floor), for the car I drive and the friends I have. Lord, thank you for sending your son Jesus to take the blame for my sin, 
in his name
*the sinner