Dear God, 
I feel so utterly defeated. Every move to grow closer to You, to do want I think you want me to do, to walk on the path of righteousness is being blocked. Lord, please help me in this storm! I am hurting, I am thirsty for the living water you provide! Shower me with that. Let me be a light. Please don't let my light be dimmed. Please Lord, let me be a warrior in this world so more souls will see the beauty of the next!
please be there for me
*the sinner